This time the last two years, I felt very different. In the spring of 2009, I’d been on the indoor trainer and in the gym for months, working hard in prep for my bid for the full Transrockies. In 2010, coming off a solid race season, I enhanced my ‘off-season’ training with 2 outdoor rides per week putting in at least 10%+15% more training time overall. I’d emerged from winter with the base I needed to be a faster racer – I felt confident, strong, and fit going into that season.

This year, 2011, not so much. With the introduction of fatherhood, reduced sleep and increased hours at work, I haven’t had the energy or the drive to train. Back a few months ago, I knew things were going off the rails, so I made a pledge, publically, that I was going to pick it up and bear down, dropping from my peak winter-weight of 174lbs down to 160lbs, and increasing my watts/kg up to 4.0. Sadly, I haven’t made any significant headway. Though I’m down to under 165lbs, this is mostly due to watching my diet, not training. My watts/kilo were actually lower last month than the previous… Ouch…

So, at this point, I want to say to any of you who’ve also fallen off your training goals, it will be what it will be – don’t sweat it. At least that’s what I’m telling myself. I don’t get paid to ride – I pay to ride. I need to remind myself of that. So, it shouldn’t be a source of anxiety, or frustration. In fact, it should be the opposite. I’m looking over at my 2011 race license right now, and instead of crying over how many workouts I’ve missed, how much slower I’ll be this year, or how much I’m behind my pals and how I’ll be rounding out the back of the field, I’m thinking about just getting out there with everybody, pushing till my guts ache and my legs scream and having a good time. What’s the point of getting all glum about it? We’re just talking about riding bikes here. Just enjoy it! How Zen…

Then, I watch a cool video like this for Leopard Trek with Fabian Cancellara, and I think, forget it! I’m going to train my ass off now, and somehow I’ll get back into shape and tear it up! haha…